Time

"As much as we can't turn back time, time will unfold our stories eventually."  - Mishberries


At least that is one thing I've learnt so far.  Everyday, one of us live in regrets of things that we have done in the past, or at times, things that we did not do in the past.  We re-live the conversations or the actions in our head, frown upon it and shake that thoughts away because there's simply nothing that we can do to change it.  Some of us however, get trapped in that thought and we fail to free ourself from its vine-tight grip, hence despairing and regretting over it more.

Time also changes everything about a person.  Sometimes, even more surprisingly, time does not affect some people and they remain the same after all these years.  Time also pushes you to do things and get things done, when you know your time is nearly up.

Time, all in all, is a very powerful matter in our life.  We can't see it, we can't hold it, we can't hear it, but we keep track of it all the time.  Time to go to bed, time to wake up to start a new day, time to pass up your assignments, time for tea break, competitions, exams, etc.  For something that we cannot grasp, every nanosecond of it has became so important to us and we strap watches to ourselves to remind us of its existence.

Time of birth.  Time of death.  Tick tock.  Tick tock.

Whatever we do, we sleep, we drink, we get high and lose sense of time, time still keeps ticking away and before you realize it, two decades has passed just like that, in a blink of an eye.  I remembered when I was still 2 years old and I fell from the stairs.  Even got stitches as souvenir from it.

One blink of an eye, its 2 decades later and me pondering over this matter.  Time has proven man to be fools but time has also proven man to be invaluable to human history, like Einstein.  Time tells the story like no other.

There was a period of time where I was rash and foolish.  Do things just because I wanted to without thinking of consequences.  Say things before I think how much it would affect the situation.  Many a time, one would say "Just do it, for the heck of it".  It means time has not taught them well but time has taught me well.  It had taught me how to more adaptable, older and wiser.

Not much wiser than I was before but at least, slightly wiser is better than none.  Time has been the factor to push people to take various decisions in their lives.  Pushing people to study hard to graduate on time.  Pushing people to think that being single at the age of nearing three decades is bad because they should have started a family ages ago.  Pushing people to stabbing their friends to get to their position in a company.  Pushing giant companies to sell heavenly price cosmetic product because time will wither a person's youth.  Time, it's all about time and it's all about timing.

At times, that encouragement or push from time drives you on the right track and you do the right thing.  That's call "Right Timing".  Sometimes, that encouragement or push from time make you do crazy things.  That's call "Bad Timing" and "Bad Decisions" but ultimately, you can or cannot blame time.  Time is merely an encouragement, not a deciding factor.  You yourself, are the deciding factor and you hold the decision.

As of these few months and few more months to come, I can see myself, stuck at this cross road with two very different roads.  To put it simply, they are extending in the opposite direction and taking either road will lead me to very different places than where I am today and it reminded me so strongly of the work of Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken.

For all of you who has not read it, it's a short poem where the Author is having a dilemma in his life because he is given two roads to journey on and he knows if he take one road, he might never have the time or opportunity in life to take the other road.

For me, instead of making that journey now, I've decided to sit back and relax at this cross road and time will unfold its story to me, letting me know which road should I take.  Will the grass on the right side of the road flourish better or will the one on the left bloom beautifully?  I wouldn't know, but for this time around, time will be kind and reveal it to me.

Time isn't always this kind but thankfully, for once, it will be kind to me.

Time, our ultimate story teller of the universe.  Time, the holder of all the mysteries of the world and on rare occasions, it let us in on one of its little secrets but most of the time, Time is not that forgiving and far more secretive.


Mishberries
1345 Hour


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The extract of The Road Not Taken, by Robert Frost (1920) is penned down here for you:

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveller, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim

Because it was grassy and wanted wear

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence.

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I

I took the one less travelled by

And that has made all the difference.

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Lastly, another year has come and it will be gone soon.  Mishberries hereby wishes all of you a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year 2014 <3

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"Absence

Makes the heart grows fonder."

Does it really now?

Did you miss my blog while I was away?  I am sure only one person missed me, which is Ditsy <3  She never gave up on me, so how can I give up on myself?

I have been here everyday, spent 10 hours or more right in front of my computer but never get to actually blog about anything because November has been a bad month, not only for myself but a number of people I know.  Whether it's your personal belongings, relationships, monetary wise, it has been a bad month and right up in 2 days time, it's gonna be Friday 13th, life's just great.

But lets be honest, we can't be climbing up the entire way right?  We are bound to come to a downfall somewhere in between and I am feeling semi downfall, semi floating but one thing I know, I will always pick myself up from where I fall.  People thinks I am optimistic, I just think I absolutely refuse to fail and neglect myself because I love myself too much and by not gloating in my own sorrow, I actually make other people happy as well so it goes well for both ways.  I stay happy, other people stay happy too.

So what are the things that makes you happy?  Makes you feel like for a short moment of time in a day, you can wipe away all your worries and tuck it safely at the back of your mind?  A hug from the person you love?  A plate of good dinner?  A beautifully latte art coffee?  Reading? Sports? The list is endless but I realize for me, I always fall back to music, and me.

Just me, myself and I, and my music.  Every single night before going to bed, I will listen to a dose of music while doing nothing really.  Simply listening to music feels like its cleansing my soul and recharging me, preparing for the next day.

Life's sort of great, sort of not that great recently but time never stops ticking for us.  It goes on forever.  It has ticked for trillions of seconds before me, it will continue to tick for trillions after I am gone, that is if the world has not been defeated by natural disaster or man-caused disasters. 

Acceptance is the first step towards anything.  To heal, you got to accept that you are hurt.  To sprint, you have to accept that you have to push forward.  To accept, is to move forward.

Whatever it is, I am back here and hope you are still there.  If not, by the time you are back, I will still be waiting right here.

Mishberries
0022 Hour

5 Seconds Later

This morning I dreamt I was playing with a cute chubby brown cat or more like, attacked by a cute chubby brown cat and it was sticking itself to my body like how a magnet sticks to a fridge.  Mind image for you:

1 Minute MS Paint Job

And 5 seconds later, the moment I woke up the first thought that came to me was " I have to wash my hands".

Then just now I was being a part time gardener (again) (You can check out my Instagram for my previous works <3 Name: Mishberries) and today, I decided to be slightly not so creative and decided to reproduce what I saw in Disneysea Japan last year, but in my own style <3

Find the Hidden Mickey!

And le gardener thyself <3

And

5 eventful seconds later.

You must be asking, what happened?  Why are the leaves scrambled?  Where's Mishberries?

The answer to 5 seconds later after the first picture of the leaves: (It's a gif, so wait for it to load <3)

Yes, ouch is the right word lol.  Mayhem when the two angelic (demon) puppies joined me in my little adventure >D

P/s:  Epic gif done by my Godbrother <3<3


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Ambulance Waaeeeeyooo Waaaeeeeyooo

Waaaaeeeeyooooo.

When you hear that sound on the road, there's two things that you would do.  First, jump in your seat.  Second, check if your seatbelt is strapped.  I mean many times during that split second when I hear a siren, my first thought would normally be the police and the I would check whether my seat belt is strapped or not as a second nature movement though I know 99% of the time I never move my car without first strapping my seatbelt on but that guilty alarm in me just trigger off anyway.

Many times however, it turns out to be the ambulance instead.  Where I came from, my home town, whenever people hear the ambulance siren, they simply continue drive like the ambulance is just but another car with an extra kinky horn sound and would not budge an inch to let the ambulance pass.  You know why?  Because they would say "Ah there's no one inside, they just want to past through this jam the easy way" and if someone do give way and the ambulance sped away, you will NOT be surprised to see a few cars who's stuck in the traffic jam, swerve and tail the empty space led by the ambulance as though they are some important ministry escorts.  It's pretty ridiculous but you know, most of us just shrug and forget all about it when the light turns green because hey, there's only that many seconds the light will stay green and all of us are trying to get past that traffic light and reach our destination the soonest possible, especially when the sun is scorching so hot.

Where I am now, it's much better.  Whenever there's an ambulance, most of the cars will swerve in all sorts of ridiculous manners just to let the ambulance pass and then wait patiently for the traffic light without trying to pull a Fast and Furious stunt, tailing behind the ambulance and I really appreciate that.

I never really get to appreciate this act of letting an ambulance pass that much until last year in June, when my mom and I was visiting my 97 year old grandma and you could imagine how my mom panicked when we arrived and we saw the maid crying and wailing.  My mom ran to the room and saw that my grandma was suffocating and gasping for air.  I am glad that I kept a cool mind and called the ambulance calmly while my mom was nearing a nervous breakdown herself.  That 10 or 15 minutes long wait for the ambulance, I can tell you from personal experience, that it is absolutely horrendous and mind torturing. With every second that pass, I swore and swore relentlessly under my breath as to why are they taking so long.  I pray and pray with every second that they get the house address right and not miss a turn and end up somewhere.   The swearing helps with calming and my prayers was answered, they arrived and within the next 20 minutes, my grandma was admitted to the emergency ward.

She managed to last though that journey but she didn't make it through the next day.  My grandma passed away on the midnight of that day.

But, till today, it feels like she has never really left us because she was so great and so strong when she was alive, even after she's gone, she's already moulded that bond and etched that image of hers so deeply in our mind that she seems to be forever living, through our memories and our stories of her.

It was from that moment onwards that it was embedded so deeply in me.  Whenever I hear a siren and I see that it's an ambulance, I immediately give way without a second thought.  I do not care whether or not the ambulance officers are abusing their powers or they are really on the way to help another distress family, it does not matter.  What matters to me is, they get to their destination as soon as possible.

I've decided to share this moment with you today and I hope you in return, would decide to share this with another person because you never know, when you will be the one waiting for the ambulance to arrive and when you are left so helpless, you could only pray that others would be more considerate and give way to the ambulance.

I will see you guys soon.

Love,
Mish

25 Things by Mary

Recently I came across a widely circulated piece of blog on the net, it's call the "25 Things I Want Myself to Know at 25", written by Mary Schmidt and I find truth in what she's found out and I would love to share with all of you if you have not read it yet.

Though we are at our quarter-life crisis, life goes on and it only gets better by the year as you age and wizen up so without further ado, I shall copy paste like a pro her great piece <3 Original link HERE.

"I turned 25 this year and I had a bit of a quarter life crisis. I felt like I didn’t know what I was doing and I was looking for advice on how to navigate this crazy adventure that is my 20’s. So for my birthday I asked my family to write a letter to themselves at 25, imparting some kind of wisdom or advice to their former self that they wish they had known at my age. My family is pretty cool and they are all people who I look up to, so I was excited to see what they would have to say. 

I have loved reading the responses I have received (I actually might have used one or two of them). Reading their letters inspired me to write down things I want myself to know now, at 25. So I did. Without further ado, here is my list of 25:

1.  Most of the time, you don’t know anything about anything. That was true when you were 15 and that will be true when you are 65. You do, however, know how to be a good person and you know how to follow your heart. Keep doing that and you’ll be just fine.                                                                                                           
2.  Don’t go on Facebook so much. Seriously, it’s a waste of time.                                                                                                          
3.  You’re 25. You’re not in college anymore. You know how to cook a healthy meal. STOP EATING TOP RAMEN, your body doesn’t like it.                 

                                                                                

4.  Also, it’s time to start drinking a little more responsibly. You started too young and you’ve been in this game for over a decade. However, unlike when you were 15 no one is going to think you are any cooler for taking that extra tequila shot. Slow down on the booze.     

                                                                                  
5.  Remember to always love your big strong legs, your bubble butt, the plumpness of your head, the way your eyes squint when you smile, and the petiteness of your lips. They are precious family heirlooms that have been handed down to you from generations of brilliantly beautiful people.                                                            

6.  Be grateful for that moment when you decided to stop being such a sarcastic asshole and let your guard down long enough to fall in love and let someone fall in love with you. Even if it ends in heartbreak, it is still one of the greatest adventures you have been on.                                                                                              

7.  Speaking of adventure, keep doing it. Travel the world as often as money and time will allow because you know how invaluable those experiences are but don’t forget about the smaller adventures. Those weekend getaways with your best friends, the 3 days spent caravanning around the state to help your brother and sister-in-law move into a new house, or the afternoons spent in a retirement community with your parents. Those experiences are just as invaluable and they fill your soul.        

                             
8.  Always make time for your parents. They might live for another 67 years…but they probably won’t. Enjoy the time you spend with them. Don’t try to rush off the phone when they are telling you about their week. Enjoy getting to know them as their adult child and realize that they still have a lot to teach you.

9.  In fact, make time for everyone in your life. You have a lot of people in your life who you love and who love you, be grateful. Don’t ever become one of those people who just gets too “busy.” Make time for the walk in the park, the cup of coffee, the glass of wine, the phone conversation. Make time.                                                                                                                                    

10.  Posture. Work on that. That curve in your back is going to be a lot more painful when you’re 70.                                                                                                                                                        

11.  You’re kind of turning into a grouch. Stop that. Immediately. Yes, life has thrown you some pretty awful curve balls over the years. That will continue to happen until you die, it’s part of life. Let it make you grateful for all that you have. Let it make you stronger for having made it through. Let it make you compassionate for the 7 billion other people in the world who are dealing with their own struggles. Don’t let it make you bitter, don’t let it make you cynical, and DO NOT, whatever you do, let it take away your sunshine.                                                                                                                                                                                         

12.  Stop comparing yourself to your peers. You do you. You’re good at that.        

                                   
13.  Stop worrying so much about what your job is going to be. It’s boring. Yes, you need to make money. But more importantly, you need to make a life for yourself. You need to make community. You need to make yourself and others happy. You need to make the world a better place. There are a lot of other things you need to make, don’t get so caught up in finding a job that you forget to make them.                                                                                

14.  Keep writing. Know that some of the things you write will be really bad. Write anyway. Write because it makes you happy. Write because it’s important to have hobbies. Write because sometimes, on very rare occasions, the things you write will be more powerful than you would have ever thought possible.                                                                                                                                
15.  Keep going after the life that you want live. I am going to be really pissed if 65 year old Mary is sitting alone in a house in the suburbs with 10 cats. Unless of course somewhere along the way that is what I decided I want, in which case it’s totally fine.                                                                                                                       
16.   It is good to have a plan but remember that it is OK to wander off the path a little and get lost. You have an amazing support system that will be there with you through it all.                                                                                                                                                                                     
17.  Please don’t sell out. You’re better than that.                                                                                                                                      
18.  Be thankful that you are the youngest in your family and you have been able to learn from the mistakes of your siblings. But also be thankful that you are able to learn from their success and the wonderful people they have become.                                                                                                                                                                          
19.  Be fearless and be brave. You are no longer the two year old little girl who was scared to go in the sand and walk down stairs. You are the young woman who has traveled the world, worked for causes you believed in and taken on a multinational financial institution. You are brave and you are fearless. Don’t forget it.                                                                                                                                                                                                    
20.  Even though you really want a dog, wait. You can barely take care of a fish.                                                                                                                                                                                                                              
21.  Same goes for kids. Just wait. I’m sure you’ll make a great mom one day but that day doesn’t have to be anytime soon.            

                                                                                                       
22.  Read more books. Blogs are great. Online media is great. But don’t forget to close your computer every once and awhile and pick up a real book or a newspaper.                                                                                                                                                   
23.  Believe in something bigger than you. Something that you will never understand. Whether it’s God or the Universe just believe in something because when everything else fails, which is bound to happen, all you’ll have left is your faith that things will get better.                                                                                                                                                                                                      
24.  Always spend time in nature. Work in the garden and get dirt in your nails. Look up at the redwoods and know that you will never see the top. Stand at the edge of the ocean and wonder what’s beyond the horizon. Take it all in.                                                                                                                                                                                     
25.  Lastly, I think you’re wonderful. You forget this sometimes so I just wanted to remind you."

The entire piece is written by MARY SCHMIDT and not a word belongs to me.  Link to her post is HERE.  She's really fabulous <3

Stamp of Approval

Heys,

Was absent for the past few weeks but it has been a great few weeks.  Took some time off and had a short vacation in Sydney and I seriously fell in love with almost everything about her.  The people, the food, the malls, the WEATHER (something that you cannot comprehend unless if you live in Malaysia where you can't even use the phrase "chill your tits" because the weather is so hot and damp all year long, everyday that the weather simply does not allow your tits to chill) 

Source: the Evil Internet

and also the fact that they love mother nature and not chop off every branch or tree that they see.  Their parks are amazing to no end and everything is just so different, so nice.  Maybe that is why we need some change of scenery once in a while- try different things, try new things and get immersed in it.  Going to dedicate an entire post to that soon, still filtering out the pictures (like a thousand over pictures lol) and when it's all ready, I am going to share that lovely experience and fun time with all of you!

For today, we are going to talk about something more closely connected to ourselves:  The HUGE Stamp of Approval.  You are probably thinking, what is this Stamp of Approval about?  Take for example, after you finish a piece of work or product, how would you judge whether or not you had produced a magnificent piece or if it is just another pile of dung that you should just flung it in your enemy's face?  How do you judge such success or failure?  Do you judge it on your own or are you the type who is concern about what the audience at large thinks?

For someone like me who is abnormally thick face and having skull made of stone, negative comments does not really penetrate through this stone-age skull, thus keeping me happy and staying positive.  Others might think I am delusional or that I am finding excuses to not see something that I am bad at when others point it out but that is not true.  I actually listen to each and every comments that comes to me: nice comments, lovely comments, constructive criticism comments and finally, criticism comments.  

You got to agree with me that almost everyone loves to listen to nice and lovely things that people say about yourself so the first two is naturally approved but for the final two, I take different approaches when I get criticism like that.  I fully appreciate constructive criticism because the audience are telling me nicely that I am lacking something in my latest work, telling me something which I can improve myself on or simply telling me something which they prefer to see me do that would put me in a better light.  These pool of people are people who are trying to help you strive for a better or greater outcome thus continuously make you challenge yourself to greater heights.

The final type of criticism comments normally comes from people who does not like to see good things happen to you and they are trying to bring you down by demoralizing your spirits, telling you that you will never be good enough and that you will never be perfect.  Whatever you do you will never succeed and will never make progress.  Well, n all honesty why do I need to heed to this kind of people?  They are not helping me improve and if anything, they are making me feel horrible about myself and making a loser out of me.  It's like someone telling me that I am never pretty enough, never skinny enough, never perfect enough so what should I do?  Cry like a baby, lash out on the person and then feel so bad and insecure about myself that I go anorexic and after that pain and tires everyone around you who tries to help you out of your situation?  Or do I do what I do everyday, enjoy each and every meal that I get and still dress up when I go out (maybe a size or 2 bigger) but still having people who enjoys my presence and company despite of my current size?  

What both you and I got to know is:  

"The world is not here to please you

You are not here to please the world

You are here to please only yourself "

- mishberries

Your thoughts are your rules, your creations are your life and you should not let other people change that.  

And another thing that you have got to differentiate is:  Is the person really criticizing and not liking your work or did the person simply lose interest in your work?

If the person is simply criticizing you, then I shall refer you to the paragraphs above.  However, if the person is someone who has been very supportive when you first started out, or someone who has been following your work for quite some time but recently the person is losing interest in your work and not showing the support that they were showing some time ago, it does not necessarily mean your skills or work is going downhill because along the way from when you first started out until todate, you've picked up a fair bit of other supporters or fans because of your more recent works.  The case could be perhaps your old supporter has simply lose interest in your current work because one does not simply stay a loyal fan for eternity.  One changes over time and so does one's preferences and interests in things.  

Take a moment and do a reverse thinking.  Put yourself in the shoes of your fans because I am sure that each and everyone of you have fans or people who likes what you do but YOU yourself in turn, is a fan of someone else.  For example, I was such a huge fan of Mariah Carey because she is a truly good singer but after a while, I turn to some other artists because at that moment of time, I find that my taste in music has changed and maybe Katy Perry's song at the moment suits me more.  Just because I am no longer supportive of Mariah Carey does not show that she has done something wrong, her recording has gone to the dogs or she sings horribly.  In fact maybe in her recent albums she outdid herself and sang some alien register note that is higher than her current whistle register note but it is plainly, I am just not that into her at the moment.  Sorry Mariah, yay Katy! 

Coming back to our normal peasant lives and not some superstar lives, it is natural to feel a bit discouraged when you learn that some of your supporters are not showing the support that they used to or liking your creations as much as before but hey, at least they have journeyed with you and they were the ones who were the pillars supporting you when you were still wobbly and uncertain.  As you travel along the journey, you will meet strangers.  Some will join and walk with you, some might not and join another group of travellers and  as you and your companion journeys, you will undoubtly come across a cross road.  Some might stay with you a little longer and take the path that you take but some might have a change of heart and take the other path.  What you should do at this point is to not be sad over those that had left you but move on, continue on your path towards your destination and more will join you naturally along your path.  People come and people go, you and your companions will come across cross roads every so often and some will indefinitely leave you but know this, you will always get new companions, new pillars that will support you along your way and the most important is to not be discouraged when some of them leave you at the cross roads.  They have their own choice and own journey to go and you can't be that selfish or hold on to that nostalgic feeling and not let them.  They too, have their own path and who knows perhaps one day, their path and your path will intertwine with each other in the near future and they will then join in your journey with you once more.

That little story above is to remind all of you and also myself constantly that in everything you do, there will always be people who shows interest in what you do and people who does not show the same amount of interest in what you do as before but that is not because of you but because the person have a change of interest and you have to understand one thing:  they have every right and reason to do so and it is by no fault of yours, especially when you think or even more evidently when you could see yourself improving in your work or the skills that you have.  You should not penalize them and most importantly, you should not penalize yourself.

You can never get that stamp of approval from everyone.  It's like what Dumbledore said to Hagrid after it was leaked that he has a giantess for a mother and some parents are protesting against him teaching in Hogwarts: "Really, Hagrid, if you are holding out for a universal popularity, I am afraid you will be hiding in this cabin for a very long time".

Like Hagrid, you can't have everyone liking your style, your skills, your work but know that you are good in what you do.  You should define yourself and not let other people define you.  Stamp of Approval or not, you are awesome.  I am awesome and you should not let other people tell you otherwise.

Aaaand, that's the end of my long winded post for today and below is a sneak peak of my more light hearted upcoming post about my trip to Sydney!

Source: My iPhone >D

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Getting High On Drugs

Makes you feel like you are on cloud nine and staring at cats pooping rainbows - not true.

Well, at least that's the case for me.  All that happened for me was glassifying and dazing the crap out of me.

Now now, let me go through a recap of what happened during the last 24 hours which got me into this situation.  It all started with that innocent bottle of cough syrup and this innocent patient call mishberries.  Little does she knows, overdosing on cough syrup actually gives you symptom or its the pathway to, as what they call it 'getting high'.

So mishberries genius-ly woke up at 6 a.m. to take a dosage of supposedly 10 ml of cough syrup but because she was too sleepy and lazy to measure the correct amount of drug she was supposed to take, she simply unscrew the cap and swallowed a mouthful that she thought should be around 10 ml.

I was never so wrong.

The time I woke up at 8, I was all dazed and glassy lol.  Its like my body is not my body and my mind is not my mind.  Everything is disconnected from one another and I am just ... floating ... floating and floating around.  Floating mindlessly brushing my teeth, floating mindlessly chewing down my cereal and simply sitting at the edge of my bed waiting for the drug effect to wear out.

Gee, now it's 10 hours after the dosage and I am still a bit druggy and light headed.  Well ladies and gentleman, please, do take note:  MEASURE YOUR FREAKING DRUGS BEFORE YOU TAKE IT NEXT TIME!  And I mean it!  Getting all daze and floaty ain't good! I mean I feel so out of controlled of my body and the thought scares me lol  Everything seems to revolve a little slower and everything seems aokay but no, everything is NOT aokay because it's simply dangerous to overdose on your drugs.

I suspected it was the cough syrup because that was the only thing I took other than my cereal and sure enough when I google it, one of the first instance of search that came right out is this:

"What Happens When Teens Abuse DXM?

Although DXM can be safely taken in 15- to 30-milligram doses to suppress a cough, abusers tend to consume as much as 360 milligrams or more. Taking mass quantities of products containing DXM can cause hallucinations, loss of motor control, and "out-of-body" (disassociative) sensations (YEP DEFINITELY GOT THIS).

Other possible side effects of DXM abuse include: confusion, impaired judgment, blurred vision, dizziness, paranoia, excessive sweating, slurred speech, nausea, vomiting, abdominal pain, irregular heartbeat, high blood pressure, headache, lethargy, numbness of fingers and toes, facial redness, dry and itchy skin, loss of consciousness, seizures, brain damage, and even death."

From: Kidshealth.org

I never knew teens take cough syrup to get high on purpose but apparently they do.  Could be fun for them but definitely ain't fun for me.

People, cough syrup is used to well, suppress your cough and make your cough better, not as a cheap method for you to get high.  The side effects from overdosing the drug could cause actual death so the next time you think of doing what I did, stop and measure using the nice little measurement cup that comes with it.

That sums everything up >D  I did not get high on purpose, in fact I never anticipated for things to turn out this way lol.  What I can say is, you are going to have a bad day if you get high on a working day.

Cheers!

Quitting

One of the things that I do often in life, as much as I dislike it, is actually quitting.  Quitting and doing things halfway - basically not completing or finishing what I start.  

-And I have nearly quit blogging after nearing a whole year of writing it.  In fact, running it for so many months has been a record and I never thought I could last this long until well, in May 2013 when I gave in to my flaw and disappeared.  I actually did not want to quit writing but I keep stacking myself up with excuses until I am practically buried by it.  All kinds of lame, ridiculous excuses - anything at all to stop myself from writing.  Why was I doing that?  I do not know.  Perhaps it was caused by laziness, or perhaps it was caused by some other interference in life and I've been trying hard this recent years to get rid of my flaws as much as possible yet I've failed.

For 2 whole months, I was absent, telling myself I will start writing again once I get through with some of the matters on my hand.  Well, what I realized is, there is never such thing as the "right time" or "perfect time" to do it.  The only "time" that matters is when you actually take the time to initiate or do something.  YOU have to make it happen, time will not make that happen for you so 

HERE I AM FOLKS.  MISHBERRIES IS BACK IN BUSINESS BLOGGING.

I missed blogging and I missed all of you.  How have you all been?  I am pretty sure you are all doing great as time and greatness does not stop just because I stopped blogging >D  

That brings me to realize another thing.  Well I actually realized this some time ago but I thought today is a good day of bringing it up :D  No day is actually a good day unless I make it so =P

I've realized that the world does not revolve around me, never ever around me.   What I do, what I say at most affects a minimal number of people around me and to what extent, I do not know but other that than, I am nothing and no one to other people  but I alone, can make a difference.

I alone can make a difference to myself and only I can make myself happy.  I've been asked and perceived often by people around me:  

"Why are you always so happy?"

"Wow you are such a happy-go-lucky person"

"Hahaha mish is a potato aka everything goes, everything's okay"

"Mish is so lucky, she has everything and gets everything that she wants therefore she is so happy every day" -> I kid you not, I got this too.

Today, I am going to share "Mishberries's Secret to Happiness" with you.  There is no hard and fast rules.  There's only one rule:  And that is, your happiness lies in your head (not hand) and not anyone else's.  You got to decide what makes you happy and what makes you not.  

Happiness does not drop from heaven into my hands.  I have what I have today is because I partly earn it and I am partly lucky.

The part where I earn it and the part where I am lucky is illustrated below.

YES of course I can get lucky but everyone else gets lucky too!  It's a once in blue moon thing but what I do is, I try to maintain that luckiness.  I don't treat it as a 'one-time use' coupon, instead I appreciate the opportunities and turn it into a win-win situation and who wouldn't be happy about it??

Folks, you gotta realize, what you think of yourself, how you bring yourself, basically EVERYTHING about YOURSELF, is 100% controlled by you and no one else and it is only you alone who can decide things for yourself. 

One thing that I've learnt is, never let others make the decision for you and every decision that you made, be it good or bad, you should take full responsibility of it and that's the thrills in life for me.   For good or for bad, at least I know I've decided it for myself and not bluntly following another person's direction.  Of course I will be more than happy when people gives me suggestions or advises on what to do but what's important is, YOU/I've got to make that decision, so that I will not end up regretting later on thinking "Why the hell did I listened to someone else and not myself??" because whatever the outcome of that decision is, it affects you and only you, and not the person who made that decision for you.  Of course you can blame the person but ultimately, YOU are still the one getting the full blast of the outcome and not the other person, alright?

I mean of course it's always easier to have someone else decide for you and if things goes great, good for you.  If things goes wrong, well, you've got no one to blame but yourself.

Which is why, I always take full responsibility of my actions.  If I did good, I truly believe that I deserve it and might even brag (a little) to my close friends and family to share the joyful piece of news, I did bad, well I gotta pick up from where I fall and continue to climb from there.  Life does not stop at the point where I fall.  The journey simply just begun.

And that, is why/what makes me happy with my life everyday.  I tell myself to be content with what I have.  If better things comes along, I am very thankful.  If it doesn't, I can live with it.  Don't get me wrong, I am content with what I have but that does not mean I am settling.  I never settle with what I have but I don't get too far ahead of myself and wishing a 100 things that I know will never happen in the next 24 hours.  I am a reasonable realist and a rationalist so to speak.

I enjoy life, I enjoy food and I actually enjoy being me.  I am not envious of your lives, as fancy as they get but I am genuinely happy for you and would work hard to one day be at a point where there is really nothing more that I want or need.  

One of my dream in life is to travel overseas but given the setback on finances (3rd world problem >D), that does not stop me from realizing this dream.  I tell myself to do it slowly and to enjoy the fruits of my labour (literally).  It is not impossible and I will still get there, just sooner so slower than I thought but does that matter?  At least I got there right? >D  

I should probably change my tagline to "Soon. conquering one country at a time" >D

That's it for today!  Say no to quitting and say yes to blogging!

My thought of the day:   "You are who you want to be" :D

Cheers <3

mishberries

Hi, For the First Time in One Month ^^

I've been pondering lately, whether to let my blog simply die out or to continue.  I've been on this tab numerous time, each time opening and then closing it even before I pen the first few words but once I start I guess it's easier to go on rather than stopping down.

I am fine, to all of you kind souls who left me messages asking if I am alright, I am very fine ^^ Just been buried by lots of things lately and it dreads my inner guilt that I have not been visiting each of your blog for close to a month.  I was a bit 'star struck' truth be told and it's not easy to keep up but here I am, my faith renewed and my energy flowing back to me >D  Thanks to all of you so much who has been telling me to not stop doing something that I enjoy.

Godbrother drew this for me in plea of asking me to blog ;_; Thank you, and also the rest of you who encourages me.  Sometimes in life you need that extra push to get you out of that pothole :)

Lately there has been multiple issues that has been popping out and making me think, something thatI don't do often which requires the using of my head to think.  I have a slight split personality:  I either let go completely and just go with the flow for a period of time and at times I just wake up in the middle of this cold reality and  I make a sudden decision where there is no turning back.  It's tiring to even keep up with myself because at times I don't know what I want or I know what I want but I cannot get it so it's frustrating.  Life does not hand you everything that you want in a plate decorated in gold.  In fact it comes in broken pieces at times and you have to fix the pieces and it comes down to whether or not you are able to fix it and get a complete plate or, you leave it hanging and uncompleted.

The current me lol, Godbrother's illustration of me and he calls it "Squished Berries" Orz

That aside, there has been major huh-hah in my country, Malaysia as the election has just passed.  Let me tell you something very briefly about my country.  We are a very interesting bunch of people as we have multiple races (Malay, Chinese, Indian) staying together for the past decades and it is the only country where you can utter a sentence in four (4) different languages but it makes complete sense to us:

"Wei" is the Chinese slang of "Hey"
"Macha" is the Indian slang of "Bro"
"Makan" is the Malay slang of "Eat"
"Tapau" is the Chinese slang of "Take away"

Complete sentence:  Hey bro, you want to eat here or take away? >D


Unlike other countries where you have one or two major celebrations per year such as Christmas or New Year, in Malaysia, we have holidays for festive season almost every quarterly of the year:  Starts with New Year, then comes Chinese New Year, Gawai (Harvest Festival), Hari Raya, Deepavali, Christmas and among others in chronological order.  We enjoy a wide variety of delicacies ranging from spicy curries, rendang chicken to chinese dumplings.  My Godbrother pointed this out to me, from the book of Life of Pi where Pi said "A good day starts with a good meal" and with all this awesome food daily, how can we not be satisfied?  In fact, Malaysians have a high rate of obesity and heart attack cases lol:  Too happy for our own good >D

Our blend of unique culture does not stop here.  We, regardless of our race, we have often extend our hospitality to foreigners.  We practically worship foreigners lol be it you are from Europe, Middle East or Asia itself, we see you we are automatically nicer to you and we itch to start a conversation with you because we are curious creatures with the exception of taxi drivers >D  They see you they see dollar sign on your face hahaha.

Recently, the election that falls on 5th May 2013 could be considered as one of the historical turn of event in Malaysia's history.  Many years back, not many people cared about politics or the ruling Government.  We were blind, shadowed in the dark.  We merely follow the direction of that dim light that was shown to us, totally oblivious to what is happening in the dark around us.  For the first time, we have fully utilize our four senses to hear(ear) what the ruling party and the Opposition has to say, see (eyes) for our own eyes what has been done, not been done or what has been fabricated, investigate via social media or papers of the propaganda (touch) and share (mouth) by word of mouth among friends and families.  We have never once stand so united and this is the start of something new. "We" in this context means everyone from all age of lives: Even those who are not of age to vote to as old as a 90 year old Grandmother.

I would not term this as a revolution but rather a wish for a change and with every want of change, there is an equal want of NOT to change.  There are always two sides to a coin.  Whatever we have, always remember that the other side has it.  Perhaps even more.  We could stand united with this 4 senses, we could harm with this 4 senses too.

Each side has their own good and bad, there is no one ruling party being the perfect one without any shortcoming.  Everything comes with a shortcoming.  Heck, even a mechanical device comes with shortcoming, e.g. poor battery life despite how brilliant it is in every other performance.

Racial tension has never been stronger, but racial unity is not losing out at all.  If we can extend our courtesy to a foreigner who is not even from this land, we should go the extra mile and extend even more to our own fellow country mates because after all, we are all from this same piece of land we call as home.

For those of you from the opposition, you may not have won this election but hey, you've made a change.  You've spoke out for yourselves, let your voices be heard.  You are no longer this small humming sound running in the background but you are standing in the spot light right now and your every voice and breath is heard loud and clear.

For those of you from the ruling Government, you have won this election but hey, you cannot ignore the voices of the masses anymore.  If you want to stay in the sandbox, you've got to learn how to share that one same sandbox with the other big boys who has come to join in the game or you are in for a bad time.

This is what's currently happening in my country.  A tug of war between two strong teams and you can't say for sure who is leading.  It is indeed one eventful historical event.  Just a small introduction to what's currently happening here =p

As for myself, a word from me to me:  No one knows what the future holds.

I know this post is a bit jumble up because my mind are in pieces right now, trying to stitch it back but here's to a good start.  Cheers ^^

P/s:  I had a nice short break back to my hometown <3

Shot taken at 0632 Hour

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