Friday 27 December 2013

Time

"As much as we can't turn back time, time will unfold our stories eventually."  - Mishberries


At least that is one thing I've learnt so far.  Everyday, one of us live in regrets of things that we have done in the past, or at times, things that we did not do in the past.  We re-live the conversations or the actions in our head, frown upon it and shake that thoughts away because there's simply nothing that we can do to change it.  Some of us however, get trapped in that thought and we fail to free ourself from its vine-tight grip, hence despairing and regretting over it more.

Time also changes everything about a person.  Sometimes, even more surprisingly, time does not affect some people and they remain the same after all these years.  Time also pushes you to do things and get things done, when you know your time is nearly up.

Time, all in all, is a very powerful matter in our life.  We can't see it, we can't hold it, we can't hear it, but we keep track of it all the time.  Time to go to bed, time to wake up to start a new day, time to pass up your assignments, time for tea break, competitions, exams, etc.  For something that we cannot grasp, every nanosecond of it has became so important to us and we strap watches to ourselves to remind us of its existence.

Time of birth.  Time of death.  Tick tock.  Tick tock.

Whatever we do, we sleep, we drink, we get high and lose sense of time, time still keeps ticking away and before you realize it, two decades has passed just like that, in a blink of an eye.  I remembered when I was still 2 years old and I fell from the stairs.  Even got stitches as souvenir from it.

One blink of an eye, its 2 decades later and me pondering over this matter.  Time has proven man to be fools but time has also proven man to be invaluable to human history, like Einstein.  Time tells the story like no other.

There was a period of time where I was rash and foolish.  Do things just because I wanted to without thinking of consequences.  Say things before I think how much it would affect the situation.  Many a time, one would say "Just do it, for the heck of it".  It means time has not taught them well but time has taught me well.  It had taught me how to more adaptable, older and wiser.

Not much wiser than I was before but at least, slightly wiser is better than none.  Time has been the factor to push people to take various decisions in their lives.  Pushing people to study hard to graduate on time.  Pushing people to think that being single at the age of nearing three decades is bad because they should have started a family ages ago.  Pushing people to stabbing their friends to get to their position in a company.  Pushing giant companies to sell heavenly price cosmetic product because time will wither a person's youth.  Time, it's all about time and it's all about timing.

At times, that encouragement or push from time drives you on the right track and you do the right thing.  That's call "Right Timing".  Sometimes, that encouragement or push from time make you do crazy things.  That's call "Bad Timing" and "Bad Decisions" but ultimately, you can or cannot blame time.  Time is merely an encouragement, not a deciding factor.  You yourself, are the deciding factor and you hold the decision.

As of these few months and few more months to come, I can see myself, stuck at this cross road with two very different roads.  To put it simply, they are extending in the opposite direction and taking either road will lead me to very different places than where I am today and it reminded me so strongly of the work of Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken.

For all of you who has not read it, it's a short poem where the Author is having a dilemma in his life because he is given two roads to journey on and he knows if he take one road, he might never have the time or opportunity in life to take the other road.

For me, instead of making that journey now, I've decided to sit back and relax at this cross road and time will unfold its story to me, letting me know which road should I take.  Will the grass on the right side of the road flourish better or will the one on the left bloom beautifully?  I wouldn't know, but for this time around, time will be kind and reveal it to me.

Time isn't always this kind but thankfully, for once, it will be kind to me.

Time, our ultimate story teller of the universe.  Time, the holder of all the mysteries of the world and on rare occasions, it let us in on one of its little secrets but most of the time, Time is not that forgiving and far more secretive.


Mishberries
1345 Hour


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The extract of The Road Not Taken, by Robert Frost (1920) is penned down here for you:

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence.
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I
I took the one less travelled by
And that has made all the difference.

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Lastly, another year has come and it will be gone soon.  Mishberries hereby wishes all of you a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year 2014 <3





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Wednesday 11 December 2013

"Absence

Makes the heart grows fonder."

Does it really now?

Did you miss my blog while I was away?  I am sure only one person missed me, which is Ditsy <3  She never gave up on me, so how can I give up on myself?

I have been here everyday, spent 10 hours or more right in front of my computer but never get to actually blog about anything because November has been a bad month, not only for myself but a number of people I know.  Whether it's your personal belongings, relationships, monetary wise, it has been a bad month and right up in 2 days time, it's gonna be Friday 13th, life's just great.

But lets be honest, we can't be climbing up the entire way right?  We are bound to come to a downfall somewhere in between and I am feeling semi downfall, semi floating but one thing I know, I will always pick myself up from where I fall.  People thinks I am optimistic, I just think I absolutely refuse to fail and neglect myself because I love myself too much and by not gloating in my own sorrow, I actually make other people happy as well so it goes well for both ways.  I stay happy, other people stay happy too.

So what are the things that makes you happy?  Makes you feel like for a short moment of time in a day, you can wipe away all your worries and tuck it safely at the back of your mind?  A hug from the person you love?  A plate of good dinner?  A beautifully latte art coffee?  Reading? Sports? The list is endless but I realize for me, I always fall back to music, and me.

Just me, myself and I, and my music.  Every single night before going to bed, I will listen to a dose of music while doing nothing really.  Simply listening to music feels like its cleansing my soul and recharging me, preparing for the next day.

Life's sort of great, sort of not that great recently but time never stops ticking for us.  It goes on forever.  It has ticked for trillions of seconds before me, it will continue to tick for trillions after I am gone, that is if the world has not been defeated by natural disaster or man-caused disasters. 

Acceptance is the first step towards anything.  To heal, you got to accept that you are hurt.  To sprint, you have to accept that you have to push forward.  To accept, is to move forward.

Whatever it is, I am back here and hope you are still there.  If not, by the time you are back, I will still be waiting right here.




Mishberries
0022 Hour